♥ x wInNiE +

I'm excited for mission trip as the date is nearing closer. It will be my 2nd, but still full of expectancy of the amazing grace and miracles God will perform in the Philippines. But my excitement is "contaminated" by that tinge of heavy heart within me. I'm burdened more by the things that happened at home, in the midst of the past crazily busy work weeks. Persecution is the word that describes what's going on. Living in a non-Christian family can be challenging. We all have different beliefs which makes explaining to them difficult, much more to make them understand. The nasty things that I heard and things against my faith can just be unbearable. I never yearn for them to encourage. Sometimes, silence is better than words that aint edifying. The spiritual environment contains a negative force. My going to the Philippines seems not be supported. But I know what and why I'm going there for. It's been a tiring Nov, but God's amazing grace lasts me though. Spiritual warfare has began even before I set off. My #1 prayer for the salvation and protection of my family becomes even more important now.

breathless

As much as I wanted to do my work well and clear many of them, my body seems to want a halt to everything. It seems so hard to do work and rest simultaneously. Work is catching up at an incredibly steeping rate. I just can't seem to be on the chase.

Somewhere... Over the Rainbow

I believe there will be rainbow after a storm. :)

Ponder...

Another 6 months, that's it.

It takes two hands to clap.
Hand A is tired hearing the same thing.
Be stretched for development, not being stretched due to a lack of resource.
Hand A feels stagnant, and a devaluation of worth if it is continuing the same.
The two hands dun seem to click.
It's never easy.
Hand A will start scoping its interests and seeking its destination.

Yes, time flies like this.

Isaac! :)

Little Isaac is such a love and joy! When I visited him yesterday, I was like "WOW!". He changes so much since I last saw him at his one-month old birthday! Well, he's so well-fed, isn't it? :)

It's gonna be good :)

I felt a strong sense of peace and joy from yesterday's church service, and cell group. On Friday, I remembered telling my brother - I just find my week turned upside down, by the many things streaming in at work. Just felt lethargic and lost sometimes. Well, it's also that I came to realise it's a personal choice on what kinds of things we choose to do with our time. That reached to many conclusions and so-called resolutions I've wanted to make.

Work has been made easier and delightfully a joy with many people God put in my life. Thank God for my family. I realised I din spend as much time as I should with them. But a little gesture from them really warmed my heart, and spurred me on. Bro shouted a loud "YOZ" when I got home; mum folded my blanket when it's in a mess; dad helped me with breakfast. :) Thank you to my dearest tai tais. You girls are fantastic and God's gifts in my life!:) Thank you to fervourians who sometimes sent me encouraging messages, and concerns through simple conversations. :) My two deary cousins who encourages and being a wonderful company. My colleagues who willingly shared good advice and encouraged in my work. My close friends from schools, whom are not forgotten, and many more through even the smallest gestures that you have shown, means big to me. Thank you:)

This coming week... Well, will be a busy one. I have a session coming up from Tue to Thu, and thus have to make sure everything runs smoothly for the trainer. These are all new people I will be meeting for the first time. That means I have to come as early as 7 am to office to pass them their access cards and tightening the loose ends on the first day. I also need to think about and prepare my materials for my own performance review with boss on Friday. Hmm, I'd have guessed she will ask me, "What development do you want in your career? How do you find your workload and job you are doing now? What are some opportunities you can think of that can improve the way we are doing things now? What motivate you at your current job? Any feedback you have for me? etc, etc. To expose me to regional/global experience to what other regions are doing in their L&D function, I ever thought of going for a short-term assignment, maybe to Shanghai or Melbourne. It will be a good learning experience. But not conceptualised yet, so have not told anyone about it.

Though packed with numerous activities in the coming week, I've a good feeling it'll gonna be a good week. :)

Somehow I've lost that passion that I once had. Motivation, joy, exitement, drive - diminishing in value. I just don't know how to describe in words how I feel now. It seems to get intrigued with other knots and concerns in my heart. Not a personal affair anymore. This doesn't seem to be be the right time to move on. Or maybe I don't have the courage.